Free Spirit Guide Meditation

Paula Kawal | Blog, Gods and Goddesses, Metaphysical, Spirituality, Energy, Chakras, Announcements, Angels | Thursday, May 8th, 2008

Over the last month, I have been fully stepping into working as a professional intuitive. The evolution has been interesting as I’ve learned to meld this work into harmonious interaction with my NLP and coaching skills. Throughout the course of this synthesis, everything within me coalesced into a deep understanding of who I and and what I am here to do.

With this congruency I’ve walked forward and have received more than I could have asked for in every respect.

I have a highly conscious friend who is fond of saying that the people you interact with will teach you what they need from you…this absolutely true!

In working with people, one of the things that has consistently come up is the desire to have an in-person relationship with their Spirit Guides. However, they have no idea where to begin.

This is what prompted me to create a free Spirit Guide Meditation. I wanted to offer some support to the people who order readings and so I’m happy to announce and launch the recording, here…on the blog.

Free Spirit Guide Meditation

This meditation is designed to clean your chakra system, achieve a place of connection and openness with your guides as well as travel with the information they share and fully integrate it from the highest spiritual levels into the environmental levels of your physical experience.

With deep love and appreciation, I offer this to my readers, clients and to anyone seeking assistance with connecting to their guides :)

Be sure to drop me a line to let me know how it is going!

Love and light,

PK

Accidentally Engaging with Negativity

Paula Kawal | Blog, Building Awareness, Stories and Parables, Paranormal, Announcements | Friday, April 18th, 2008

Engaging Negativity
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Ever wonder whether or not you are responsible for your choices if you accidentally engage with negativity? I mean, shouldn’t ignorance save us on some level from suffering severe consequences if we unintentionally make a bad choice?

Well the answer to that is if we make the choice, we suffer the consequence. Unintentional or not, you are responsible for the decisions that you make, even if you had the best of intentions when you made it. Hidden within the beauty of the accident however…is the ability to make another choice and to learn from the experience.

The Quija Board

When I was fourteen years old my cousin from Connecticut flew out by himself to spend part of the summer with us. He was like an older brother in many ways, as our families had lived together on and off throughout our childhood.

Getting Bored

Well, it wasn’t long before we started to get bored. We had taken hikes, seen the sites and spent enough time together to remember all the stuff about one another that made us crazy, so as most teen-aged kids eventually do…we decided that taking ourselves to the mall would bring some much needed entertainment into situation.

The Mall

On this shopping excursion we hit the game isles looking for something to do when a most unusual board game caught our attention. There right in the middle of the isle were Quija boards.

We looked at them with curiosity. Eureka! This simply had to be entertaining!

We were absolutely certain that Quija boards were nothing more than a game. So we took one home to have fun with later.

The Game

There really wasn’t much to the game, which consisted of a board and a pointer device. We placed it on each others knees, put our hands on the pointer and started asking questions. Some of the answers were funny, some of them curious and then they started to get a little creepy.

Slowly but surely we became more and more uncomfortable…until we decided to ask just who we were talking to. The energy started to feel very heavy and dark as the entity gave us its reply and identified itself as an angel of darkness.

That was enough to prompt us to end the game, which had seemed like such a harmless thing to begin with.

We stood looking at each other shifting uncomfortably, while we tried to laugh the whole thing off as a figment of our imaginations…despite our best efforts, the dark feelings and heaviness remained prompting the decision to retire the game to my bedroom closet shelf for the rest of the evening.

When my mother came home, we told her of our experience with the board. Needless to say she was not happy about the events that had unfolded in her absence…although she didn’t say much, I would come to find out later that she was prepared for the worst.

Psychic Attack

That night as I got ready for bed I started to feel less and less safe. It was as if someone or thing was watching me.

My room, which was normally my sanctuary began to adopt and unfriendly feel and resonated with an energy that I actually disliked. I’ve always been someone who doesn’t believe in darkness and if you ask me today…I’d still say I don’t give it much attention if any at all.

This being my natural tendency it was really strange for me to feel what I was feeling on that night regarding my room.

I decided to ignore it though…and went to bed.

I turned off the lights and the energy emanating from my closet grew immediately more intense. I turned my back on the closet and attempted sleep but the feeling of being unsafe persisted to where I was having difficulty. I am a person who is practically narcoleptic when I am tired though, so eventually…despite the difficulty at first, I fell asleep.

My dreams were dark and threatening…literal night terrors and I found myself sitting bolt upright, facing the direction of the closet, drenched in cold sweat.

It felt as if something was literally out to get me. That something was meeting me in my dream time and we were in a literal show down.

I got up, terrified. My legs shook as I opened the closet door. You can’t hurt me, I told it as I grabbed the box and took it out to the kitchen table. Where I intended to leave it for the night.

Soon, I was awoken again this time sitting bolt upright and staring at the opposite side of the room. I was utterly confused at this point, because I knew I had removed the board…but there it was, sitting on my shelf.

I took it out again and my cousin stopped me. He had been sleeping on the couch in the living room right next to the kitchen. He told me that he could not sleep with it there and literally begged me not to leave it on the table. At this point my mother appeared in her doorway. I felt a deep sense of hatred begin to ooze out from the board. It was about 5am and it was garbage day.

The Trash: My Way of Saying No to Darkness

Making up my mind to be certain that no one else had this kind of experience I grabbed the box and began to take it outside to the trash. My mother stopped me and thrust a box of sea salt in my direction. I took the board out to the trash can that stood in front of our house, the sun was not yet visible but it was growing more light. Smashing the board over my knee I told the demon the game was over and poured the sea salt over its broken remains while holding the intent for this portal to close.

I stayed up, camped out on our porch waiting for the trucks to take it away while my mom sprinkled sea salt in a stream all around the house. When the trucks came and took it away I knew it was finished and I went back inside and actually got some sleep.

Consequences of Choices

I was exhausted for several days after this experience. Later on in life I would come to find the scarring in the energy body surrounding my seventh chakra due to this event. It was a simple experience, a bad choice, with some very real consequences. Many kids play with stuff they don’t understand. My story in not at all uncommon.

Fortunately, I was strong enough to face the negativity I engaged with head on…my refusal to acknowledge the power of darkness and my absolute faith in the power of light really helped me here.

When I think back on this experience however, I feel doubtful that it would have happened at all if I (at the time) had possessed a conscious relationship with my spirit guides.

They were prompting me and trying to steer me away from it, but I consciously dismissed this as a kind of childish fear on my part. Seeing how at that age, we really want to be grown up…it is an easy trap to fall into.

Had I been consciously aware though of how my guides communicate with me…I would not have thought of it in that way.

Developing a Conscious Awareness of Your Guide Team

It took me a long time to realize that I had guides and even longer to learn how to communicate with them much of which I learned by trial and error over a time of intense spiritual practice.

It sure would have been nice to have something to start out with!

Kick-Start Your Relationship with Your Guides

With that in mind, I’d like to offer a more empowered place to start by opening up to you my Spirit Guide Reading service.

This is vital information for anyone to have who is just becoming aware of their guides and would like a little more information to work with.

Do you want to know how many guides you have in your inner circle team? Are you wondering what energies your guides are working with or who you should call on for what and when?

Remember, that your guides are here to serve you in your spiritual evolution. They can do this much better when you develop a relationship with them and can be specific with what you want them to do.

We can also ask for special assignment guides if you need help with something in particular. Likewise, we can also release a guide if you’ve accidentally hired a negative being onto your team (I’ve literally had clients that were being blocked by their Higher Selves from consciously connecting to their guides for this reason).

Spirit Guide Reading Details

Here is what you will receive with your reading:

  • The name of each inner circle guide
  • A description of how they physically present
  • A description of how they are currently prompting you
  • An understanding of the energies they are working with, and what through them is available to you
  • A mission statement of what they are here to help you with
  • Guide assignment/reassignment if necessary and
  • Guide team stabilization

Click here to order!

Blissed Out - Attuning the Archangel Michael

Paula Kawal | Blog, Gods and Goddesses, Metaphysical, Dreams and Trance, Energy, Chakras, Angels | Tuesday, January 15th, 2008

Angel

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Trail of Breadcrumbs

The Archangel Michael has been trying to get my attention for several weeks. These subtle communications began with work I was doing with another coach. I was coaching her to start her new career which combines a wellness food and supplement store with her health coaching services. When she found her store location she said there was a shop next door to it that always reminded her of me and she sent me a link to their website. From there I was led to the Archangel Michael pendant.

Michael kept showing me images of my spiritual self wearing the pendant and then in my NLP Practitioner group I became aware of a lady who channels angel healing and I watched her perform one on my friend Raj. I could literally feel the energy radiating out from her and affecting certain areas of my body even though she was not doing the healing for me.

To be honest I wasn’t at all sure what Michael was trying to tell me at first. I searched the internet for angel attunements, I looked up Reiki courses and tried searching for Michael in every way I could think of hoping he would lead me to some better understanding.

Angel Communication: If Subtle Hints Don’t Work…They Use a Hammer!

Then my daughter brought home a whopper of a virus, knocking us out of commission for nearly a week with skyrocketing fevers and terrible congestion. I was the last to get it and knowing that I allowed myself to become sick was like an alarm bell going off saying, what have I been ignoring that I need to take care of?

I thought maybe it was some accounting organization that was on my “to do” list…I cleared that out and it didn’t help. So then, I moved onto these all important “must have” documents I’ve been meaning to finish. I completed my revocable trust, will, my health and financial powers of attorney and still…nothing. Finally, after taking both of my children to the doctor and learning that they each had ear infections it clicked…I’m not listening…that is what this illness is trying to tell me.

Surrender

I already knew who it was I needed to listen to but I was bewildered because I had been looking for signs. Finally, the house cleared out for a day as the children and husband resumed a normal schedule and I surrendered. Michael, I said, I don’t know what you want…please show me.

The Attunement

I took the dog for a walk on the trails behind the house as I find the nature setting enhances my ability to receive messages as does the exercise. While walking with her I went off into a whole other world entirely safe under her watchful gaze, unconsciously moving along this trail we know so well.

Michael told me he wanted to teach me how to attune with him. He gave me a set of instructions which I followed to raise each of my chakras to his vibrational frequency.

Then he ran his energy through them, sprang forth from my crown chakra and bombarded me with light until we were deep into the void…nothing existed outside of the light…that’s all that there was.

When I returned to myself I found him standing directly behind me but it was more like he was standing inside of me except that he is sooo enormous he hovers high above my head. I understood that I was now an extension of his hands and a channel for his energy.

More on Mission

During this process Michael showed me a rapidly playing movie that explained the necessity of this energy connection with him and I received a lot more information than I knew previously about what my soul agreed to do on this planet.

In this movie was a map with points of light (representing geographic areas of high spiritual vibration, potential points for movements in the expansion of human consciousness), Michael explained that he has been with me from birth for the purpose of supporting those areas and that this mission is one that has been passed down to me through my Grandmother’s family in Cedaredge.

At this point he turned the conversation over to my Higher Self who explained some of the major turning points that happened last year and how they are significant in the present.

As I left the trail, Michael said the attunement process would continue for awhile and that I would receive a sign when it was complete, at this, he once again showed me his pendant.

Energy Shifts

When I returned home from the walk I went by a mirror as I removed my coat and stared into the largely dilated pupils of someone in deep trance. This didn’t really surprise me as it took me quite some time to get fully back into my body.

Something about the shift in energy made me simply irresistible to my dog though. First she tried to get all of her massive German Shepherd self into my lap for a cuddle and when that didn’t go to her satisfaction she followed me all around the house for a time whining audibly if I traveled to an area in which she is not allowed to go :)

Even the neighbor’s dog seemed affected as she ran tearing out of her yard toward me when she saw me out to check the mail…when she finally caught up with me she danced with her ears back begging to be stroked.

It’s funny how animals are often the first to respond to changing energy, come to think of it my palm chakras opened for the first time during the attunement, perhaps there is more to this petting stuff than I realized ;)

She’s Too Much

Paula Kawal | Blog, Building Awareness, Overcoming Fear, Dreams and Trance, Health, Paranormal, Energy | Saturday, January 5th, 2008

Looking for Signs
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The Meaning of Tears

Here they come again. Wet, hot tears…streaming down my face, wracking sobs buckle me over and I wonder once again why this would be? After all I knew this was coming, Grandma showed me everything I could want to know and more…so why am I overtaken like this.

Why don’t you ask the part of you who cries? Knowing-ness queried. Hmmm, I hadn’t thought of that. So I drop down inside, identify the part and I ask, what are you trying to tell me?

Rising up in front of my face very close is a red faced little girl. She’s me and she clenches her fist in my direction and shouts, Don’t you ever forget how much I love her! Don’t you ever forget her!

I draw her up in my arms and comfort her. I know you loved your Grandma, I love her too. It’s o.k. I’ll never forget. As I make this promise the feeling sinks back down to the depths from which it came.

Looking for a Sign

The last time I spiritually saw Grandma was on the day she died. I’ve felt her and heard her but could not detect her with my spiritual sight. I wondered at this; unconsciously looking for a sign.

Grandma’s Message

Then while listening to a new CD I got for Christmas I received one. “She’s Too Much”, played and I experienced the rising tears again. I told the part, I’ll always remember her and I’ll always love her but there was something more the part wanted me to know.

As I tuned into it I saw Grandma standing there…swaying to the music singing…

she’s gentle to the touch
she’s everything head-first
so happy to be causing trouble
sometimes the pressure gets too much
and you think she’s going to burst
and shatter like a Xmas bauble

I’ll be there when the world is coming down upon her
when she’s scared I’ll be there fighting in her corner
I’ll be there when the walls are closing to surround her
in the air as she falls with my arms around her
holding on I’m looking out for her thin skin
because she’s everything - and I don’t think she knows

She’s such a gentle touch
She’s too much a gentle touch

she likes to catch the sun
plays with it like a ball
and never mind whatever keeps it burning
someday she might just be the one
who’s going to save us all
if this apocalypse is coming

I’ll be there when the world is coming down upon her
when she’s scared I’ll be there fighting in her corner
I’ll be there when the walls are closing to surround her
in the air as she falls with my arms around her
holding on I’m looking out for her thin skin
because she’s everything – but I don’t think she knows
I don’t think she knows

she is such – a gentle touch - I don’t think she knows
she’s too much – the gentle touch - I don’t think she knows
she is such – a gentle touch - I don’t think she knows
she’s too much – the gentle touch

Lyrics: Simon Le Bon
Music: Duran Duran
© 2007 Skin Divers

The Queen of Hearts

My Grandma’s spirit is strong, her presence is more like that of the angels I’ve experienced than any other energy I’ve encountered so far.

In life she was always a source of cheer, love and protection. It would appear from her message that none of that has changed :)

Messages Through Time: Part 3

Paula Kawal | Blog, Building Awareness, Overcoming Fear, Dreams and Trance, Paranormal, Energy | Tuesday, January 1st, 2008

Stolte Packing Shed
Stolte Packing Shed - Built by my great, great grandfather along with his sons in 1909.

Messages From Guides

Many signposts are written, many messages are sent…the question is how you do use the information you receive.

My guides tell me that they are always communicating with us, when I asked them about why I’ve had such heightened experiences with them over the past year they indicated it was because my awareness had grown to a level where I actually began to act on what I received in a way that allowed the experience to grow and they indicated that one of the biggest mistakes people make with their guides lies in the way that they attach meaning to the messages.

Like learning a new language, you have to wait for the context and just assume you don’t know. When I began to just hold what I received and take an attitude of curiosity about it, that’s when it really started to take off.

I feel that the final chapter of this series that commenced earlier in the year due to a psychic encounter with my great grandfather Ernest, illustrates this very well. You can find the previous entries in the series here: part one and part two.

Following Intuition

Ernest showed me scenes from his family’s passage from Denver to the town of Cedaredge, CO by train and the trunk that carried all of his belongings to their new homestead when he was just fourteen years of age.

Following his promptings to visit the area, I went to see my grandmother in August, arriving on her birthday. Since she could no longer speak to me due to advanced Alzheimer’s, I curled up next to her on the bed and communicated with her through the only method I had available to me…trance.

The first thing I noticed from years of burying my head into her for gigantic hugs as a child was the acidic undertone that hung against the comforting scent of the woman who had always been a second mother to me. Though I didn’t realize it at the time, my senses were the first to pick up the shifting energy.

My grandmother and I spoke for some time while I was in trance state. We hadn’t talked for long before she mentioned her dad coming to pick her up, showing me a mental movie of him walking through the door and herself as a child of about five running to his open arms for an embrace. He picked her up, gave me a nod and said, It’s time to go see mother. And with that he headed into the early winter evening with my grandmother in his arms toward a small house full of people waiting for them to arrive.

Loose Ends

On December 29th, I received an e-mail from my Aunt saying that my grandmother had given them a scare but seemed to be doing better now. I immediately went into meditation connecting with her only to find that everything was different…I knew she was dying.

My grandmother had been bedridden with Alzheimer’s for years. I always thought there must have been a reason for her to hang on all of this time. Even so, I was surprised to find her in turmoil when I entered her energy as she had been so congruent the last time I communicated with her. I asked her to show me what she was experiencing that was causing this distress.

A glowing scroll-like paper appeared and I knew immediately that all of this centered around some sort of spiritual contract that was still playing out in her energy. As I focused on it, the scene rolled out before me.

There was an inn-like structure in which my grandmother and another woman were holed up. A threat was underway and they were frightened for their lives. A man whom I recognized as one of my uncle’s entered the inn door through the shadows and was erroneously perceived as an enemy by my grandmother who stabbed and killed him.

I got the sense through all of this that my uncle was a very loved and respected man, so it was quite tragic and horrific to them losing him in this way.

In this life, however, the cycle was to play out differently. My uncle has had a troubled life from a very early age. My grandmother always tried to help and protect him, in fact he still lived with her up until the disease advanced beyond her ability to care for him. His anger and vehemence toward life was getting worse so they were separated by force before they got the chance to live out the remainder of their karmic debt.

In viewing this movie of their past life interaction I was gifted with a huge moment of understanding regarding their close bond in life. I called them to me and together we viewed what happened as a group, my grandmother to my right and my uncle to my left.

I mediated by talking about how hurting each other was never an intent but rather a result of circumstance and asked each of them if they were ready to rewrite this contract rather than allow it to play out again. From this vantage point in which they had more information it was easy for them to see how unnecessary it was to continue any further with it and the contract dissolved at the moment of their agreement.

Leaving or Getting Home?

Later on that day my grandmother died very quickly, and with ease. Her father had come to take her home on the same day he departed this earth 48 years before…just as she showed me he would.

When I look back on what I have experienced, I am very grateful that I acted on the information I was given with openness and curiosity about where it would lead because that is what allowed me to receive it fully. As a result, I was present for my grandmother’s last birthday which was immensely important to me. Had I doubted what I received I would have missed it and rationalized my way out of taking the trip. Instead, I did not allow the rational mind to come in and switch things off…so I was then able to be of assistance in clearing her karmic debt before she passed as well.

Paradigm Shift

On December 30th, my husband’s birthday, I received confirmation from my mom that grandma had gone. As a day that our family traditionally celebrates life, I thought it appropriate to buy a bouquet of lilies as a space holder for my grandmother. With their energy I created a place at our table for her to join us…and I know she’s with us still :)

When I think about life/death and time, I’m filled with awe. There is a reverence within me that accompanies thoughts of the void; the door that swings both ways through consciousness moving in and out of form in this dance that we describe as life.

This same deep, void is the pool from which our intuition springs…and perhaps therein lies some of the mystery. Every time I use my intuition I think of it as dipping into that pool and swimming with the universe which runs through every thing and every one I’ve ever loved. My thoughts for the new year revolve around swimming there often with curiosity and acceptance of whatever new adventures life brings.

Healing through Past Life Integration

Paula Kawal | Blog, Metaphysical, Dreams and Trance, Stories and Parables | Tuesday, December 11th, 2007

Past Lives

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The vision started while I was walking my dog on the wooded bike trails behind our house. I rounded a corner and came face to face with the body of a man out in the cold. His crisp blue eyes were trapped in a frozen gaze. I noticed the honey color of his hair and mustaches…a part of me recognizing him, yet I did not know him from this life.

As I watched, I saw myself drop down beside him from atop a horse, close his eyes with my fingertips and say a prayer as I silently took in how he had died. I heard my inner dialog speak of waste, it appeared he simply was unable to make it back to the settlement.

Initiating Past Life Memories

The above scene came to me not long after setting an intent to understand any past life lessons that held significance in this current life. I idea of past lives was unsettling to me at first. A part of me wanted to know and a part of me wanted to run away from whatever may have happened before. It was not until I became congruent with my desire to grow, and use past lives to do it, that I actually remembered one.

How Can Remembering a Past Life Help Now?

There are many ways in which remembering a past life can be helpful. Some will point out to you why you have always been attracted to certain time periods, cultures or ways of life, why certain places, people or things can seem so familiar or why you are locked in a certain pattern of behavior or in relationships with certain people.

Past lives represent the opportunity to resolve long standing resentments, passions, agreements and other forms of energy contracts we with make with others that carry on from lifetime to lifetime. With the past lifetimes resolved you can more easily fulfill your purpose in this one. :-)

It is a way of bringing all of the strength, knowledge and wisdom you acquired over the lengths of several spans of human existence into the life that you’re currently living.

How Do I Know if Something I’m Experiencing is Past Life Related?

First and foremost, ask yourself. Your spirit knows and will give you an honest answer. Some other ways of noticing telltale signs of past life experiences are instances of deja vu or a feeling of unfounded recognition and knowing, extremely strong emotional reactions that seem to be out of place for your current experiences and unexplainable attraction so deep that you seem to move without the permission of your mind toward this person, place or thing.

The Opportunity to Heal

Understanding ourselves from the perspective of a previous life time can make sense of some of the people and situations that surround us in our current one. Meeting people that we have history with can be very difficult in the here and now, understanding what that history is, helps us transmute the situation into an opportunity to heal.

I was atop a castle wall standing amongst loyal men and my husband, watching my knight ride forth into battle against another army. I saw him strong and shining fight on as his men fell around him until he was knocked from his horse.

I did not think, I simply leapt from the wall and turned into a great white dragon. I flew to him, sheltering him with my enormous body as I transformed back into myself. I was actually more fierce and wild looking as the woman! The men that had been surrounding him fled, their battle lust driven from them by the sight of the dragon.

Pulling his helmet from sweat soaked hair, I moved to support his head in my arms and noticed as I did the great gash in his torso. I placed my hand on the wound and prepared to heal him when he grasped my hand and said, “No.” He continued, “ There is no other place I’d rather die than in your arms…it’s better this way. This way, I can take our love onto the next life knowing that neither of us betrayed our vows for the of sake it.”

I buried my face into his neck and shoulders and wept. I could not act against his will and so we held each other until he took his last shuddering breath… “In the next life, my love,” I whispered, “In the next life.”

When I encountered this knight in my current life our roles were reversed. The attraction and need for a relationship with one another possessed a power of its own. So we lived through it once more, transmuting the bond that tied us together through time. Eventually, we were free, and moved on to the real reason we came into our here and now, wiser and better prepared…having learned from each other what it was that we really needed to share.

I know some people who are currently caught up in reliving past life interactions with each other. You never stop learning from past life experiences. They are powerful teachers when re-lived and they are even more powerful when transmuted, which leads me to the next subject.

Past Life Workshops & Coaching

I have plans of putting together some special workshops featuring past life integration, dream work & trance and a line of coaching that specializes in past life work. If you’re interested in the workshops please e-mail me, and I’ll get more information to you, I need to gauge interest before setting a date.

And if you found the story of this past/present romance intriguing and suspect that there is a lot more to this than I have mentioned here, I would like to say, that you’re intuition has not misguided you. Although it is too long for a blog post, I did include the story of this entire past life and all of the ways it unfolded into my current one, in my upcoming book, “Animal Magick: An Empathic Journey of Spirit.”

Hopefully you’ll be able to satiate your curiosity for the details by Spring! ;)

Reading from Slade Roberson (Shift Your Spirits) and the Bee

Paula Kawal | Blog, Gods and Goddesses, Paranormal | Thursday, September 6th, 2007

The BackStory of the Reading

When I first met Slade Roberson we had an immediate spiritual connection. I can only describe it as a very conscious recognition of spirit, as if, on another level we knew each other. This connection manifested in me asking him for an interview for this blog, a meeting with his guides regarding interview questions and lastly, scheduling a reading.

In each of these instances Slade was thinking something to which I responded, almost as if we had a spiritual short wave radio that we were using to listen to one another. I received my first reading from him a few days after I began my NLP Coaching course. I didn’t know what day he would do it, but was not surprised the morning I got the email because I was aware of another person’s presence (a distinct energy connection) the night before.

What was it like?

It was a journey. Together we traveled through the landscape of my energy toward a visual message that was meant for both of us. We met my main spirit guide, got a look at my god posse and discovered that we both serve the mother/goddess in the aspect of Mary…I would come to understand later the connection between her appearances to me and first chakra energy. Here is a segment of my reading:

I received a very detailed vision of visiting your Tower with you. You told me you had to “run upstairs to check something” and told me to look at a display case of what looked like trays of jewelry or pendants. You said “I want one of those” and ran off. I looked where you pointed and there were two pendants or amulets that appeared to be made of amber. They were shaped like honey bees, but were the size of carver or bumble bees — slightly larger than life-size.

They were gorgeous, and I thought, if Paula gets one, I’m getting the other one right beside it — I want one too! If you come back from San Francisco bearing some gorgeous new amber pendant, I’ll just die from jealousy! : ) Obviously, these are symbolic — I can’t imagine actually finding something like them physically existing… They were almost anatomically perfect, like tiny machines made of jewels or some material we don’t have the technology for. Well, I take that back, circuit boards and computer chips have a similar look and feel, really, in terms of physical material…

So, you came flying back down the stairs and grabbed my hand and said “I’ve got to show you something!” You were very excited. I followed you up this spiral stone staircase leading up into your Tower, and I was anticipating where you were going, but I was also reluctant to mention that I can only go so far up in my Tower — I can’t go out “on the roof” — at least, I haven’t been able to yet.

I was beginning to suspect you had discovered something I have not. Sure enough, the staircase went straight up to the ceiling and awkwardly ended. No door or window. There was a landing at the top, like there SHOULD be a door or window, but the space between the landing and the ceiling was barely half-a-foot high.

You said “Watch this!” You had just “watched someone else do this trick” and had apparently tried it, and very quickly returned to find me and show me:

You laid down and inched/crawled into that space between the landing and the ceiling — barely room to squeeze your body into it. It looked incredibly uncomfortable, claustrophobic… I was like “Paula, what are you…?”

Red-faced and barely able to breathe you shouted back “No! Watch this!” And right before my eyes you pushed yourself up against the ceiling, like doing a push-up and BIRTHED yourself through the ceiling and vanished. Like a caterpillar erupting through the skin of a cocoon.

The ceiling is an illusion. After you went through it, it returned to looking like a hard surface. But I know now that you have discovered a way to another level.

Slade literally saw me go through the roof of my tower and that is an appropriate visual comparison to what I have been experiencing.

What Does the Bee Mean?

The bee piece resonated with me so strongly I was surprised by my reaction when I read it. Around the same time as the reading, I picked up a chakra book at the East West Bookstore in Mountain View, CA when I was in training. I had no idea at the time that I would find a part of my answer to the bee there.

(From Wheels of Light)
The image of the bumblebee is found in Crete and Egypt. In Crete the queen bee symbolized the mother goddess who created everything, nurtured everything, and was the reason for being. In Egypt, the bumblebee was a sign of the female pharaoh, the southern part of Egypt or the Upper Nile.

The bee and other insects that move like a bee have a rhythmic movement in their legs and in their antennae. This movement relates to the first center. When that movement becomes exaggerated and accelerated it is then associated with flight. In people, when internal movement (or energetic vibration) becomes rapid, it can be said that we are “flying”. We are lifting and moving, expanding and growing in a way that we had not been doing before. Because of this association, the sound of buzzing is often related to the opening of the kundalini. Consequently, the bumblebee became symbolic of the first chakra in the ancient world.

Understanding Symbolism in Readings

Slade has a way with symbolism and reads authentically. He is his own physic in every sense and has a distinct style and ability mixed with straight forward honesty, curiosity and wonder at what he will learn.

My experience with him was a surprise, the information right on and the connection profound. Do I know all of what it meant? Yes, actually I do, so I will leave you with this last quote from my reading as food for thought.

It’s not lost on me that Jeff Lilly had a vision he wrote about that involved a mechanical bee. What do I think this bee is?

Well, I think it’s some totem that we share. I think it’s connected to technology and human ascension. As a devotee of Mary, I believe the bee represents something she stresses to me about human ascension — that we don’t ascend individually — we’re meant to ascend collectively. Is the bee perhaps a metaphor for the hive mind, the collective social structure, connectivity, our new technologically enhanced democratic communication?

These are my theories. Any honey bee action going on in your world?

Messages Through Time: Part 2

Paula Kawal | Blog, Stories and Parables, Paranormal | Thursday, August 30th, 2007

Denver: A Spiritual Assignment

I flew into Denver International Airport on a mission to celebrate my grandmother’s birthday and to explore psychic messages I received from my great grandfather. In order to begin this adventure I would need a car, so I made my way over to Alamo early on Saturday morning wondering what I would discover. The first discovery was that renting a car is not a speedy process :) , the second was that two year olds can be extraordinarily affectionate (as my cousin’s daughter showered me with hugs) and the third was the true meaning of home…

The Original Message

My great grandfather was a Stolte of Cedaredge, CO. He moved to the area when he was fourteen with his family and helped them homestead 80 acres of land that in time became a productive orchard operation.

When he contacted me earlier this year he sent me several images; an old steam train, an airplane, a travel trunk and an image of an old farmhouse stamped with a heart. He told me to go…and showed the trunk opening to something that felt wonderful.

Based on these images I spoke with my aunt who lives in the area. Aside of my grandmother (who now has Alzheimer’s) my aunt remembers the family history having heard their stories from her mother and her aunts for the many years she lived nearby and visited them. I described the travel trunk to her and she identified it as my great grandfather’s. It was actually in her possession for a time but was now in very bad shape and in a place that just isn’t accessible to us…my original intent was to be open to the experience and see where it would lead. With that in mind, I went to the link between us and the real reason that I came.

Visiting Grandma

While visiting my grandmother I connected to her energy and sat sending images of birthday cakes (it was her birthday) and the old family structures I had spent the previous day visiting, right down to the taste of an orchard peach I purchased less than a mile away from her family orchards. It was then that the scene changed and I found myself in a room with her. She looked much as I remembered when we lived together. My grandmother never went anywhere without putting on her lipstick…always leaving traces of it on my cheeks, so when she kissed me hello without it I teased her and asked her why she didn’t have any on. She said she didn’t need it because she wasn’t going anywhere until her dad came to pick her up.

Then she showed me an image like a movie displaying before us. I saw my great grandfather open the door and my grandmother as a child of about five run to him. He bent down and engulfed her in a hug, picked her up and said, it’s time to go see mother (my grandmother lost her mother to surgery when she was very young). They waved and exited through the open door, I followed to stand and watch them walk up toward the same farm house he had previously shown me imprinted with a heart. Her brothers and sisters were all there seated around their mother waiting for their father’s return.

The scene closed and I was back with my grandmother lying in the nursing home bed. They got her up to eat and I went and sat with her, smoothing her forehead, relaxing the muscles in her tightened brow. She remained relaxed and happy until I announced it was time to leave. She furrowed her brow once again and I kissed her goodbye, knowing that love transcends our physical reality…that the bonds we create are not dependent on time, they are spiritual and they operate on laws of their own. In some space and place the intense love that this family held for each other lives on…and has created a home. A home of the human heart and soul…

Home

Witnessing this I ponder some of the ways in which we humans shine with beauty…we shine through our care and concern for one another….our capacity to help, to share our human experience, joy in one another and our love of this amazing adventure we call life. To me home is any place where I have experienced intense connection and love…what does home mean to you?

A Psychic Encounter with Princess Diana

Paula Kawal | Blog, Paranormal | Wednesday, July 18th, 2007

Introduction

Considering how much people all over the world loved Diana, sharing my encounter with her is not something I do without a form of hesitation. It is only through Diana’s reassurance that this is the reason she came to me (attracted by my main spirit guide Laura, a powerful queen of stately measure accustomed to aristocracy) and the trust I have developed in my own psychic experiences and urges that I do this…my personal growth would suffer if I did not…so really it wasn’t much of a choice ;)

Diana wants people to know the soul behind the face of the beloved princess, her purpose for entering our world and that she is with us still…impacting us in an even bigger way now, from beyond.

Opening the Channel

This encounter started with a treadmill routine which isn’t all that shocking considering that I use the treadmill to raise my vibration as long time readers know from my good vibrations post.

It is fair to say that some of my most unusual psychic experiences actually occur while I am working out. This event in particular began with an onslaught of images from my life dramatically displayed. Right outta nowhere, I was shown pivotal people in specific interactions, was flooded with a full gambit of intense emotions and witnessed soul rings in formation. I was taken by such surprise that I backed out of the scene for a moment…the images were disturbing to me but at the same time it didn’t feel like I was viewing real sequences from my own life but rather someone was using creative images of my life to communicate with me…why are you showing me this? I asked, talking to my higher self and guides.

In a claircognizant moment I knew. Diana, the Princess of Wales, was trying to communicate with me. I had inadvertently opened a channel to her while gazing at her photo when I picked up a Reader’s Digest from the floor to put it away, prior to my workout.

She expected me to immediately end my routine to communicate with her…when I did not, she adopted a sideways posture in which she turned her back to me in a slightly indignant manner and said, it is not everyday that an intuitive gets a visit from the Princess of Wales! We both laughed at the petulant quality of this statement. Admittedly it isn’t an everyday occurrence, that much is true, but seeing how she came to me for a reason I felt it was best to prepare. She agreed and the conversation below, followed…

Interview with a Princess

PK: What do you want to tell us?

Diana: The truth.

PK: Did you choose to be a Princess?

Diana: Yes. It was all part of the design. It is important for people to know that there is a circle of tightly bound connected souls in my life…we came with interconnected purposes…we agreed to have certain relationships with one another for the benefit of those purposes. To them and that purpose I am bound still.

I chose to be born into the family I was for a reason. I chose to experience an emotionally painful life so that the privilege, which was necessary to accomplish my mission, would not interfere with it.

One could say that my physical self could not take this world, but my spiritual self was inseparably connected to it. I absorbed the pain of my fellow humans, developing a deep connection to the world’s suffering…yet only partially knew how to answer this. I was aware of my life purpose as a humanitarian, but I had difficulty sustaining that purpose without the status and station which supported those efforts. When I lost what my insecure physical self had used as an identity, I entered the collapse of that self and lost my grounding.

My life ending how and why it did is viewed as tragic because so many were on some level aware of and responding to me. Death to the personality means the end, but it does not work that way in actuality. I am still working, using the love that was generated within my lifetime to stir people.

People responded to me because deep down inside they knew that I was here to expand their ability to love and care for one another…it had little to do with Princess Di.

PK: Do you consider your life to be tragic?

Diana: No not at all. It was filled with pain but that is not tragic. I’ve spent a lot of time wandering other places in this world - everywhere there is pain. I still work to fulfill my soul’s mission to end the madness and help human beings return to a place where they no longer damage one another.

PK: You say return, that implies we’ve been there already?

Diana: Yes, we have been…but when we take on physical form we forget. We become locked in patterns. I came to help break some of those patterns, to change people’s thinking and to open their eyes to the fact that what happens in the world…happens to us all. My life and death were a perfect example of that.

PK: What does the life of Diana mean?

Diana: It means perfection is not required to make a difference in the world. It doesn’t end with physical reality. Don’t think about whether or not you can…just open your heart and participate.

PK: What do you want to say about how you are remembered?

Diana: I am here. I watch people and reach my hands into the physical world through their memories. The connection is profound and it is one that I am working through every time I am recalled, remembered, talked about, written about or referenced. Remember me…but more importantly remember why I came.

Remember Where You Came From: Conversations with Erin Pavlina

Paula Kawal | Blog, Paranormal, Interviews | Friday, July 13th, 2007

Erin Pavlina is one of those rare lightworkers who came into this world with a memory of where she was before she incarnated. With her grounded, straightforward, compassionate, loving and aware way of being, Erin brings a knowing into the psychic world that provides it with a sense of legitimacy.

Erin’s goals revolve around taking her understanding and insight into the worlds of energy and consciousness and using them to help human beings achieve universal love, awareness and peace. In the following interview Erin talks about her mission, developing her psychic ability and remembering where she came from

PK: What are some of the techniques that you found the most helpful for developing your psychic abilities (i.e. exercises to stretch your awareness, meditations, etc.)?

Erin: Consciously listening to my intuition was the first step. I actually practiced listening to my intuition. The more I did this, the stronger it became. It got to a point where my intuition was like a guide riding around on my shoulder warning me of danger or guiding me through tough situations. Once I mastered that type of communication, I did a guided meditation to find my higher self. Being able to talk to her directly allowed me to tune in to my purpose more easily. She helped me develop my “antenna,” so to speak, so that I could hear and see other helpers from the ether such as angels, spirit guides, and celestial beings. Once that door was opened it was just a matter of turning up the volume on my “psychic radio” and tuning to the right frequencies. I do a lot of work on my chakras, and I still visit with my higher self several days per week to see if she’s got any messages for me and to make sure I’m still on the right path. I always seek to stretch my awareness. Lucid dreaming and the occasional astral projection help me stay conscious.

PK: Where did you learn these techniques (i.e. who has influenced your development)?

Erin: In my teen years I used to read a lot of occult books. I was interested in astrology, psychic development, crystals, ghosts, past lives … pretty much anything in the New Age section. Shirley Maclaine’s Out on a Limb series did a lot for my interest in all things psychic. But I’ve always been very self motivated to learn, study, and understand the paranormal because I was having so many experiences as a child.

However, since becoming a professional psychic medium I’ve begun trying to study from more established people like John Edward, James Van Praagh, Gordon Smith, Doreen Virtue, and John Holland. I’ve learned a little something from reading each of their stories, but I’m also finding that my path is very unique. My guides train and teach me most of what I know. And I learn a lot just from experience and practice.

PK:  I’ve heard psychics refer to their guides taking them through something similar to a spiritual training class.  Please describe this process, how it starts and your personal ideas about initiating such training with your guides.

Erin: When I first began doing psychic work for others, not just myself, at first I was only hearing snippets of information, like a one-line message for people I was reading for. I was very clairaudient at that point, so I could hear spirit communication easily. But I told my guides I needed to be able to see, as well, so that I could accurately describe deceased family members coming through during a reading. They facilitated that, but I had to make sure I was open to it too. As I got going with the readings, my guides literally showed me how to tune in better. They took me up a celestial staircase that led to a White Room. I call it the White Room because it is just pure light in there. Inside is a special guide that helps me tune in specifically during readings. Occasionally my guides will inject a new technique or take me to a new place to do a reading; to connect at a higher level.

When I first started receiving communication from deceased relatives, they would come to me in my White Room. But I was unable to find them on my own; I had to wait for them to come to me. So I worked with my guides on finding a way to reach out to deceased relatives that had crossed over long ago and were not hovering. I still can’t force anyone to come through, but I’m able to “call long distance” now. :)

PK: Has your psychic ability been forged through the process of ‘remembering where you came from’? 

Erin: Definitely. For many years I had this memory of where I was before I incarnated. I could remember the conversation I had with my guides and other wise beings about what I would do while incarnated. But during my whole life I thought that couldn’t possibly be a true memory. When I finally opened myself up to the idea that it could be is when I finally started to embrace the yearnings I had to help others. I didn’t know it would take the form of being a psychic medium, and I still consider this ability to be just one tool in my belt. My true mission is to help bring this planet back to a state of love, peace, and compassion; to remind us all that we are One, and that what we do to others we are really doing to ourselves. When you remember where you came from you remember who you are. You remember that we are all One. And you stop hurting others.

PK: How has this changed your life and what do you hope this remembrance will give to others?

Erin: I believe that if people remember where we all come from they will immediately stop harming each other and our planet. A great awakening and shift in consciousness will take place. And that’s what I’m here to help facilitate, as are many of the Lightworkers on this planet who are incarnated now.

PK: I view psychic ability as reading energy.  My experience with it is that you tune in to your truth if experiencing your own energy or the truth of the energy of the person you are reading.  This energy is translated into something that your spiritual senses can receive.  People often ask if what is received can be proven or is true.  My take is that truth is relative and that what is received is what is needed to help someone to move forward in a particular area of their life…their truth may not be another person’s truth…but the part of them that knows will look inward and they will see something that clicks with their path and where they want to go.  What is your understanding of this concept?

Erin: When I tune in to someone’s higher self, guides, and angels, they pretty much just tell me what they most want my sitter to know. The very first thing I do in a reading is let the guides speak to my sitter. The message they share is so important to the overall well-being of my sitter. Usually the message connects very specifically with my sitter’s main reason for contacting me. But sometimes the message is something they were not expecting and they sometimes want to reject it. By the end of the reading, or maybe even a week or two later, they usually get the message. It’s life-changing! It’s like finding out the corridor you were following is going to lead to a dead end and having the opportunity to correct your course before you have to experience that dead end. I’ve had people tell me that their guides’ message helped them more than years of therapy ever did. Your guides know you. They can see what you’re doing and where you’re headed. And they can help you make course corrections. One reading can save you years of heartache.

As for proof and validation, when I am tuned in the guides will often provide my sitter with some profound validation that I am indeed speaking to a higher being. Recently during a reading someone asked, “What can you tell me about my health?” I immediately heard one word shouted at me: “thyroid.” So I asked her if she had a thyroid condition. She said, “God, you’re good! That’s my problem exactly. I have Grave’s disease.” Some people ask me, “How did you know?” To which I reply, “I didn’t. They did.” I only pass on what I hear.

I am honored and privileged to do this work. I am grateful every day to my higher self, guides and angels, and to Source for supporting and allowing me to help people on their paths. It fulfills an agreement I made before I incarnated, an agreement I take very seriously.

Erin Pavlina
“Remember Where You Came From”
www.erinpavlina.com

I hope you enjoyed these conversations with Erin Pavlina. I encourage anyone who wants to open up to their own psychic abilities and/or god connections to book a reading with her and have blogged about my own experiences after having done so. On that note I’ll end this post with a message that came through when I connected with Erin’s guides to formulate the questions for this interview:

“Light and dark are two paths to the same place…learn to love them both equally. Embrace the darkness and love it, enjoy it as truly as you enjoy the light…do this and you will overcome fear…no dark place can hold any power in the light of love…a person who truly loves all is the source of their own light.”

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