The Pendant Speaks

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Awoken from a Dream

Last week my husband and kids got a stomach virus all at the same time. I was the only one who was well and I spent several days and nights rushing from person to person doing anything I could to make them comfortable. As they were recovering, I energetically as well as physically cleaned house before becoming ill myself.

I awoke the morning after they were all on the mend to a shift in my body, so I tuned into my own energy throughout the day allowing my physical form to instruct me on how to care for it. I was so grateful for its wisdom, I felt like I had access to the ultimate healer/physician and so I paid close attention to its every need. I sent my body a lot of love and moved through it all with great ease. I was mostly just depleted of energy and I had nearly recovered within the span of a day.

The next evening I was awoken by our daughter who was standing next to the bed stroking my right arm. As I came to full conscious awareness I found that I had been holding my Archangel Michael Pendant while I slept in my left hand. Knowing that this had some sort of significance, I helped my daughter get back to sleep and mentally stored this piece of information for the waking hours ahead.

An Unexpected Reading

That morning, I was concerned about leaving for my NLP Master Practitioner training in San Francisco. Our son had been on again off again sick with the various parts of the virus. Instead of getting it all at once as his father and sister had, he was getting it in stages that were a few days apart. While I was recovered, my energy was still balancing and I felt like I needed to be very gentle with myself.

My friend Raj (who also attends the training) always picks me up from the airport so I phoned him to tell him how I was feeling. During the course of the conversation he gave me a quick reading. As he prepared I grounded and opened myself to source energy. Immediately an image of appeared. I was walking toward a triangular shaped mountain with a jagged snow line. On my left side was the Archangel Michael and on my right the Archangel Raphael. It felt like being brought forth toward Source, like an initiation of light.

The Pendant Meditation

During the weekend the subject of my Archangel Michael Pendant came up often. People who are energetically sensitive are drawn toward it…as if it is communicating something to them on a spiritual level. These attractions and conversations generate the sense of a deep soul level relationship as we recognize the significance of meeting someone who is on our spiritual path of growth.

Considering all of this, it is not surprising that a group of us began to hold it, seeing what we sensed as we did. Raj held it and said that he could hear it speaking but he couldn’t understand what it was saying; he urged me to connect with the pendant and find out. So while we were on our way to a fellow practitioner’s house to watch a viewing of the Princess Bride, he led me through an exercise to find out.

I went into a very deep trance despite being in a Mustang that literally excels at noticing every bump in the road :) and here is what I found:

The pendant showed me a radio dial and tuning into a clear channel. Raj asked what the pendant is telling me to do and the words, BE YOUR TRUTH came. So then he asked, “How do you be your truth?” I was given the answer, by walking the path of light and love.

Then he queried, “And how do you walk the path of light and love?” At this point I was shown the path directly out in front of me…an intense sense of desire, will and passion emanating from my solar plexus began to form an energetic attraction to the path and I simply replied…I must want to…but there was so much more than these words to that simple realization.

This did not mean mind wanting alone…this meant full body…wanting…the kind of wanting that moves you without your conscious awareness that you have moved.

Compassion and Jesus

The next morning I entered a meditation in which I wanted to get clear about my truth and what the path of love and light means for me. So I went to the place where I usually convene with my higher self, spirit guides and angels. I sat watching the sunrise over the ocean view from an ancient stone wall when I noticed Jesus approaching, flanked by Archangel’s Michael and Raphael.

I moved forward to greet him when he said quite abruptly, yet full of love and compassion that my heart was too small. He reached into my chest, pulled my heart out to where we could both see it, stretched it to an enormous proportion and then returned it to my chest cavity.

I sank to the ground with its weight as I watched him wave and begin to walk away. “Allow yourself to receive love,” he said, “It is always available.” At the sound of his words the new heart in my chest opened like a sponge and beautiful golden light began to flow into it from every direction. Jesus continued, “Love is in the air you breathe, the sunlight that falls on your skin, the animals, plants, trees and in the very gaps of space that create life itself. It’s in silence and it’s in sound. It’s in the people around you…and it’s in you.”

But what about the path of light and my truth? I thought toward his retreating form. “I’ll leave that to Sylvia (my higher self) to explain,” he said. O.k. yes, I thought, but please leave Michael here with me…and in a flash the Archangel was by my side. I gazed out toward Jesus in the distance noticing Michael still walking beside him…looking up into the Archangel’s face I smiled at just how habitual the programmed limitations of the mind are.

The Meaning of the Path

Sylvia spoke from the stone wall where she had been standing. Focus on your heart, she said. Place your full attention on it’s center, be there with it…and notice it deeply.

I did as she said and found myself in a darkened room. All around me were the silhouettes of pregnant bodies, inside the large abdomens were beautiful children of light. I rushed around to each tummy full of child, placed my head against them and spoke loving words of excited encouragement. I was filled with anticipation and couldn’t wait to welcome these radiant souls into the world.

Soon, I began leading the forms to a birthing room. There I helped and witnessed each child be born. I was the first person to hold them and see their beauty and perfection. As I held them and wrapped them up in love…I began to hear their song of light.

I listened for awhile, humming the tune to the infants, noticing their nuances of excitement in response. Then I handed them off to their parents…who would assist them in entering their world. At various stages of development they return for a visit. I again, noticed their beauty and perfection, together we sang the song…and from this place of love I tell them how they’ve grown. They ask me questions and I listen to them deeply…from the level of my soul, providing directional assistance while knowing fully…the curiosity, wonder, excitement, love and pure potentiality that accompanies them on their journey.

Back to Class

Later on that day, I am assisted by the Archangel Raphael in helping a classmate who is a budding empathic healer gain control of her energy after she unintentionally healed another attendee in tears over the difficulty involved in the previous day’s processes.

We hug each other as she comes fully back into herself and her own Source infused balanced energy.

The same love that I felt while holding the babies in my meditation bursts forth from my heart chakra. With Raphael’s gentle and glowing form in my mind, I smile…allow the love to flow and think…ain’t life grand?

The Stillness of Spirit…Merry Christmas!

Paula Kawal | Blog, Meditations, Dreams and Trance, Earth Awareness | Sunday, December 23rd, 2007

Gift of Winter

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Experiencing the Gift of Winter

This time of year Washington State is gray and wet. The sun did not come up until past 8am this morning and it will be dark shortly after 4pm.

As I ponder the waning light something holy within me stirs. Approaching the shortest day of the year doesn’t bring the winter blues it once did, instead, my awareness gravitates toward the sacred within me that revels in the feeling of absolute silence, in no-thing-ness. I go further down and it sings to my spiritual ears like a heavenly choir and what I imagine must be angelic voices…emanating peace, joy and a complete center of being-ness.

The very earth herself whispers to me of sleeping in dark, warms spaces, of the womb and the possibility that lies in the miracle of rebirth. In total awe, I experience the message of this season that speaks of rest, rejuvenation and completeness…of being whole. Of the way of being before dualism and the split of segmented sexes…the way of being in and of ourselves complete.

The feeling travels me down the course of eternity, to depths that were previously unimaginable. To the solid, sure, core which is synonymous with possibility, dreams and the spark of creation…to this place my soul takes me and the word that comes is home.

The Soul’s Longing for Home

In the above passage I took you on a little soul journey of what the holiday season means to me at levels deeper than the rituals we perform each in year to celebrate.

This is a time of year that is often full of longing for joyful celebration and the deep connections of family and home but have you ever stopped to question that longing? Why does it drive you home each year? What does it want?

Over the years I have come to understand that as humans we come into the world with an inborn desire for family. Recently I asked those questions and the answer that came back was a little surprising to me.

For me being close to my family is symbolic of my deep seeded need to truly know and experience the joy of connecting with who and what I really am.

How interesting that the first view we develop of ourselves comes from the mirrors of our family and that what we see there causes us to cycle between wanting to get away from them and wanting to go back…wanting them to anchor us and wanting them to let us go.

Our families are our starting point of awareness and our movement within them represents the ebb and flow of the life to which we go and from which we come.

This holiday season I’m expressing gratitude for my family, who has assisted me in growing my consciousness and developing awareness in more ways than they will ever know.

Merry Christmas!

Cultivating Compassion Through ‘I Am That’ Thinking

Paula Kawal | Blog, Building Awareness, Meditations, Energy | Friday, December 21st, 2007

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This post is a creative approach to exploring the paradox of judging what we are, or limiting ourselves to a particular way of being. I know that many people find looking beyond the many aspects of what we are to be a powerful way of cultivating awareness through the you are not what presents itself inside of you approach.

I think that an equally powerful practice that is sometimes overlooked is totally embracing every role you’ve ever played and every archetype you’ve ever embodied.

Whatever your view, it is useful to compare these two modes of thinking, examine them side by side and switch modes from time to time. I feel that I have developed a deep compassion for myself and others by playing with this viewpoint and have found they both ultimately lead to the same place.

Awareness with a sense of humor.

This particular brand of I am that awareness started while I was listening to the radio (something I rarely do) while driving my daughter to preschool one day. A popular song written by Meredith Brooks in the nineties called, “Bitch”, came on.

I’m a bitch, I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
when you hurt, when you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numbed, I’m revived
can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way

Perhaps it seems like an unlikely place to find the inspiration for writing an article about compassion, but there it was…a song about the many roles we play within one life time. And it gets really interesting to me when I consider the roles that we embody over several.

I can take it out even one step further and examine the mythical roles we play as a race…the universal experience of the human being that has been evolving since we first became a part of the consciousness of this planet…this living organism. What story might unfold from that perspective?

Whether I’m a bitch, a goddess, a sinner, a saint, a mother, a teacher, a lover or a healer…it’s all part of the paradox within me which encompasses all things but is contained by none of them, it is intangible and undefinable because spirit communicates using channels that exist outside of judgment.

Emotions from the different approaches.

From the perspective of you are not that, you look at emotion and say, there it is…it is not me…it is simply a reaction to egoic or wrong thinking. It is information about what is happening inside of me. From this place of observation and acceptance the feeling wanes and you develop an altered state of consciousness.

From the perspective of I am that, you may look at rage and see yourself as Aries the god of war, or Chaos the father of destruction. Embrace that very male energy bringing it inside of you, channeling it to and from the very place of it’s origin and existence becoming it so completely…and accepting it so fully that the feeling transmutes into self awareness and a higher state of consciousness.

Whatever the approach, you land at the same place. So I find that when I approach something challenging from one perspective and it is not giving me the results I desire, that switching to the other mode often will.

Using the modes to connect with desired states.

I find both approaches very useful but I primarily use I am not that thinking when I want to enter a state of nothingness. When I want to channel specific energies I use archetypes.

I typically call on the Queen that I was in a past life for confidence and authority, I have a favorite goddess for sexual energy and usually I call on a combination of the mother goddess and the Virgin Mary for nurturing energies.

Christ consciousness is useful for inner peace, service and compassion under the many different forms and cultures through which it arises, bearing it’s hidden messages about life through nature…a message that is symbolized in each of the evergreen wreaths, boughs and trees that decorate our homes at this time of year.

Using the modes to access compassion.

So this holiday season when you are faced with someone whose beastly behavior is presenting you with an opportunity to grow, you have a few compassionate choices available in how you select to view them within the situation.

You can look for the spirit within, using the they are not their behaviors thinking, or you can jump right into beastliness with them and ride it to it’s creative Source and the very deepest levels of spiritual communication.

It is the process of using all that comes up for you as the mirror…knowing that you only see what you do in others because it is in your own consciousness, therefore you created it and so it is also within you.

At the Source level there is ever only one thing going on…the rest comes down to our judgments and interpretation

Both of these methods lift us out of judgment and make us more compassionate to ourselves and others which ultimately comes down to viewing each other outside of the lenses of separation.

Spread the love now!

Some of the greatest acts of compassion I have ever received have come from this non-judgmental space of connectedness.

One in particular that was extremely life altering came in the form of understanding that no matter what I did to chase my step-dad off, I could not make him abandon me. Up till then I had been left by every father I had ever known, he knew what it was like to be left by his parents and so he simply could not do it, no matter how hard I pushed him.

So when someone is really getting under my skin, one of my favorite practices is to fully and completely step into their way of being, knowing I’m about to take an exciting journey of discovery as I acknowledge what I see in them, breathe it in and say to myself…yep, I’m all that…and more!

Then I silently bless them with gratitude for the opportunity to integrate these aspects of my own consciousness, knowing the separation with which I viewed them previously was merely a reflection of my own divided internal state :)

This holiday season…I wish you many opportunities to spread the love of your ever expanding awareness, opening to who and what you are and finding in the process that you are capable of throwing your arms around the world!

Note:

Thanks to the Three Monks – Wade of The Middle Way, Kenton of Zen-Inspired Self Development, and especially Albert of Urban Monk who by inviting me to participate in the Spread the Love Now! project, ultimately inspired me to get this post that had just been sitting there out to you fine folks!

The Sacred Space of Offering

Paula Kawal | Blog, Meditations, Dreams and Trance, Creativity, Energy | Tuesday, October 9th, 2007

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Sacrifice and the LoA

Most of us in the personal/spiritual development realms are aware of the Law of Attraction and how it works. What is less obvious perhaps is that it was once known under a different name and practice…sacrifice.

The idea of sacrifice conjures up a lot of unpleasant images for most of us, as it is a practice whose heart and spiritual significance is vastly misunderstood by the modern mind. So if you find yourself getting uncomfortable right about now…let me explain.

Make an Offering

The Law of Attraction operates on the principle that we are constantly making offerings to the universe…most of which are unconscious in the form of our thoughts. If you want more of something, you find what you currently have in your life which represents the more of what you want, place your attention on it and create a congruency within your thought patterns to support it. Then you cast it out into the universe…you let it go and trust that what you have given will return to you in a greater magnitude.

It is the same with the concept of sacrifice. Ancient peoples quite literally took the best of what they had and gave it back to the universe in a spiritual communication that is as old as time. The ritual surrounding the preparation of their offerings and the thought that went into selecting the appropriate items for surrender placed an enormous amount of attention on the understanding that life is an exchange of energy…a dance and that when energy is given, something new is produced. They performed the process using the body and mind, combining both spiritual and physical elements to enter a place of unity that lives deep within the human psyche.

Acknowledgment: The Heart of the Offering

Both the Law of Attraction and sacrifice embrace the concept of acknowledging that you already have something of what you want (hence the offering) and within that acknowledgment is the understanding that the universe is capable of producing more. They also both involve a trust factor…a making of space, a letting go, a release that sparks new growth in the area of your desires. It is then placed firmly within the hands of their perception of God, and the rest as Einstein so aptly put it…are details.

Getting Stuck on the Details

Seeing how instruction or various other input from us is not needed to create a tree or fish it is also reasonable to suggest that the whole of what we want doesn’t require much from us to create…and that the details are best left within the realm of the divine.

Micromanaging what you manifest limits your options. It takes something with infinite ways of showing up and forces it to travel down a traffic clogged roadway, where it is likely to get stuck in the congestion, placing it at the mercy of the environment and severely limiting its chances of making it through to its final destination.

Yet this is what many of us do with our requests…we funnel them down to exactly how we want them instead of allowing the universe and the infinite intelligence housed within it…to surprise us. It’s no wonder so many people become disillusioned with the process.

Creativity: The Art of Holding Space and Letting Go

I discovered a method recently when I was knee deep in the creative process that I think accurately portrays the art of holding space and letting go. We are by our very natures, creative beings, and what I’d like to demonstrate here is that creation comes effortlessly when it is coupled with space and intent.

I was working on the concept for my new web site when I stumbled upon this method. I wanted to be extremely clear about who I am and what my mission is and this required me to distill it down to its very essence. I needed to get to the heart of it, to journey down several layers within my unconscious mind and translate what was there into the words and images that are its perfect energy match.

I started out by loosely holding the images and feelings I resonated with for the site while going into deep trance. In the trance state I found myself beside a great rectangular pool of unimaginable depths. It looked Greek in architecture, beautifully tiled in white and with aesthetically placed giant columns along the side. I walked to the front of the pool and lined up one of the things I was working on, literally taking it out of my mind and body and placing it on the tile right next to the waters edge.

I backed up a few feet and sat down to watch, cross legged in meditation. I simply observed with no expectation other than wanting to see truth. Sitting there, holding the meditative state I was peacefully detached, empty, open and free.

Effortless Return

Eventually the item I placed began to change. Sometimes it levitated off of the ground and morphed into something else right before my eyes. Other times the item was claimed and swallowed up by the waves of the water lapping against the tile only to return as something new traveling along the surface of its white crested tips. And once when the offering was particularly well received, hands like those of the Lady of the Lake appeared with a gift from the depths of the pool.

Each time I exited my trance state the items I went in with had been transformed…and imbued with a new energy that gave me something more to work with. Increasing my clarity with each image I placed…until I was absolutely certain I had what I was looking for.

I think that what I’ve found with this experience is that the secret to an effortless return lies in entering a state of curiosity about how life comes up to meet the mind that’s seeking truth :)

What do you think?

Running With Myself

Paula Kawal | Blog, Meditations, Energy, Chakras | Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007

Treadmill Meditation

I haven’t run for nearly two weeks. It’s unlike me but between all the car rides on vacation, catching up on the stuff to do at home and focusing on creating a new routine and direction that is how long it has taken me to work it back in.

I am zealous about physical activity however, so today was the day I turned it around and rededicated myself to my running routine. While I run, I usually do chakra meditations and this routine was no different.

Changed Chakras

The first thing I noticed when I entered this meditation was that my chakras were larger, brighter and for lack of a better word…stronger. Especially the first, second, fourth and sixth.

Lately, I have been very focused on working to rewire my neurology toward activities and thinking that support my purpose in life. So I guess it is not surprising that some of the changes I created might also have an effect on my chakras as I could feel them responding to the way I was reorganizing my mind.

As I experienced them during this run, there were massive differences in their openness and shifts in the energy surrounding them. They seemed to sing. Some part of me responded and I went further into the trance state.

Creating a Circuit

When I reached the seventh it opened wide and I saw energy roots coming from my legs, reaching deep into the earth and then connecting with what looked to be a plug originating from my eighth chakra. Once the cord was connected I experienced a surge of energy flow through me, pouring down into my flesh from my eighth chakra, a waterfall that filled me from the inside of my form like a container, until all I could see was a being of silver light.

Experiencing a New Me

As I ran, my limbs became the limbs of this energy being. Watching my arms and legs pump up and down, I caught sight of her silver sheen within me…causing my skin to become transparent in her light. I could see and feel her perfect beauty with every step and understood that it was the energy circuit that was holding her in place.

Experiencing myself through her was marvelous, I noticed my fluidity, my strength. It felt like all the potential of energy…like eternity. It was in this moment that I felt most like myself in an unlimited form.

I’m fairly certain it is the work I’ve been doing on my purpose that brought on this meeting with my higher self.

Knowing she’s there and that I can experience her in this way fills me with a sense of peace and is a wonderful validation of my current path.

Mirror, Mirror…

Paula Kawal | Blog, Meditations, Dreams and Trance, Life Coaching, Energy | Wednesday, September 19th, 2007

Birthday Reflection

Today, is my birthday. As I sit here contemplating this post, an image from the movie The Matrix flashes through my mind. Neo is sitting there, hooked up to this device, gazing at himself in the mirror…pretty appropriate, I think as I gaze at my computer screen and notice how my hands appear to be hooked up as I type, to the silver box that is my MacBook Pro.

Mirror…Mirror, I find myself saying, reflecting on the fact that without my conscious knowledge I scheduled a coaching session today with Raj, a fellow coach who refers to me as ‘the mirror’.

We are eerily alike…watching him approach life is almost like watching myself in a movie. While coaching each other we take turns climbing in and out of the roles of experiencer and observer…knowing that in either role we’re learning far more about ourselves than we ever expect.

Whatever we work on is a lot like tumbling down the rabbit hole…we think we know where it might lead…but then we end up somewhere else, only to find out that this place is exactly where we needed to go.

In these sessions we’ve been tackling subjects like personal development heavyweights…we just go in and tear it up in the manner of those sorts of people who are completely comfortable with self exploration.

You know…those Steve Pavlina types, who approach life equipped with a kind of fearlessness…that absorbs every challenging aspect of the experience and creates in its place enthusiasm, excitement and a joyful readiness for change.

The Mirror Exercise

In honor of all the mirrors, reflections and rabbit holes in life I am sharing an exercise I created as a pathway to different parts of myself. Sometimes I see a future self that has accomplished my goals, sometimes it’s a younger self that wants to play, sometimes it’s a fantasy self that lives in another world…regardless, I can use the mirror as a pathway and the other part of myself as a guide.

To start this exercise, I imagine myself in a room that is empty save one item, a huge piece of furniture tucked against a far wall. This item is covered in a white sheet, so I can only see its outline. It reaches to the top of the ceiling, is oval in shape and very large. As I walk over…I am possessed with the desire to tear off the sheet, but before I do, I state this intention.

Mirror before me…that which I see
A perspective born anew…a reflection from you
I experience a dream…I’ve never before seen
Something helpful today…a new path…a new way…

And with that chant I rip the sheet off…knowing that what I see before me, is a symbolic exploration relevant to my current place of growth in life. I reach into the surface of the mirror which ripples with reflective color all around my arm. It feels silver, cold, wet and refreshing as I walk slowly through.

I look around to find myself inside the scene that appeared after my chant, I see myself staring at me from the other side. I sit watching the real world me. I see how she walks, talks, thinks and experiences life from her current point of view but I see so much more.

I can see the energy around her, the past events that are significant to her and the future possibilities she has yet to become aware of. I rewind her life to some of these past events to explore them and I fast forward to some of the future events until I have gained a perspective that satisfies me and then I exit the mirror…and go back to being myself…taking back with me, all the adventures I had on the other side of the looking glass ;)

Attention Bubble: A Powerful Method of Self-Observation

Paula Kawal | Blog, Building Awareness, Meditations, Health | Monday, July 23rd, 2007

Understanding how to use your attention is one of the most powerful tools for transformational change that you can develop. Because our attention is our area of focus, it reveals our dominant thoughts, our operating beliefs and what we really think is important.

In order to change that area of focus we need to learn how to contain it, shift it and create new scenarios which are more empowering and are in alignment with the life we know we were meant to live. In this article I’m going to outline a method that I use frequently; the Attention Bubble.

The Attention Bubble can be used to contain fearful images, thoughts or scenarios when you encounter them, it can be used to launch your dreams into the world or it can be used like a movie screen in which you simply observe your thought patterns, emotional responses and other internal processes. Its versatility has made it a favorite with me and of course, whatever works for me I’m happy to share.

You are the Camera

When I first started using this technique it all happened very intuitively, a deeply profound perspective shift like looking through the lens of a camera occurred. I found myself observing my own attention and what it was beginning to notice, watching it shift more and more toward that direction. I was looking at this process from the outside of it instead of the inside. So the first step in using the bubble is to take the perspective of the camera and be the observer of your own attention.

Using the Bubble to Contain Your Attention and/or Thoughts

One of the best uses I have found for the bubble is as a container. An example of this can be found in my Experiments in Manifesting post in which I used the bubble to contain my focus when I noticed an imbalance in my foot while I was running on the treadmill. If I had not used the bubble my attention would have been pulled into the pain, allowing a temporary imbalance to become a full-fledged problem.

The bubble can be used to hold your attention while you find a more suitable direction. In the case of my foot situation, I used the bubble to hold my attention until I figured out a course of action…which was to flood the area with healing light, to see healing hands massaging it until it glowed, until I could see my spiritual body, perfect and whole shine through the surface.

To hold your attention in the bubble pick a nondescript focal point such as a shiny spot on a wall. You are looking for something that won’t stimulate thought yet is interesting enough to hold your attention. Once you have it, imagine looking through a camera lens. In the circle of the lens you see your focal point. Slowly that circle turns into a large bright soap bubble. Hold it until you no longer need it…then imagine it pop.

To use the bubble to contain a thought simply see your thought clearly, now imagine a shiny, iridescent soap bubble forming around your thought. Your thought is now trapped inside the bubble. Take a several deep breathes and with your exhales watch as you blow the bubble higher and higher. It floats away from you until it either pops or disappears.

Using the Bubble to Manifest Your Desires

You can also use the Attention Bubble to manifest things you want to bring into your physical reality. I love doing this! There are a couple of methods you can use to manifest a desire using the bubble, which you choose will depend on the visualization technique you are most comfortable with. Start by visualizing an image or scene of your desired outcome (see yourself living with it as a real possibility).

As this scene or image develops imagine a soap bubble forming around it almost like a crystal ball or if you have seen the movie Labyrinth(this dates me a tad, and yes, I am very fond of this movie), you will know exactly what I am talking about.

It is like watching a movie contained in a beautiful transparent sphere. Imagine the sphere moving up and over your head. See white light coming down from above you. Flood the sphere with all the energy and light you can channel while watching the scene. See it move higher and higher, becoming one with the light as it travels up to heaven…release it to the universe with joy, knowing that it has traveled into the world of energy…the world in which all things first appear…a mirror to our own reality.

Using the Bubble as an Observation Screen

The bubble can also be used for observing thought forms. For example, I am about to embark on a 23-day trip away from my family for intensive NLP & Life Coach training. I have never been away from my children for this long, so one day I noticed my attention wondering toward fearful thought forms of being alone, trusting others to care for them, allowing them to have experiences of which I am not a part and allowing myself to experience apart from them.

Rather than let my attention be absorbed completely by these fears I decided to use the bubble as an observation screen. In this way I could still experience and accept what I was feeling, without becoming the feelings. I could then develop an awareness about what was going on that would allow me to separate fears from facts and come to a balanced place of trust and peace.

To use the bubble in this way you imagine yourself looking at your mind through a video camera. Use the camera to follow your attention to the thoughts and emotions that are playing out before you. In the circle of the lens, see the brightly colored soap bubble develop…the bubble is now your camera view.

Allow the thought forms to play out and then hit the pause button. Ask yourself about the facts of the situation and list them out. Doing this will make the opinions or beliefs you hold around the situation easier to notice. See these opinions…as you focus on them they dissolve in the light of your attention.

Hit the play button again and let the scenario unfold with just the facts, hold the expectation of all things good and pay special attention toward developing a perspective that can find it. With one great exhale of truth, peace, balance and acceptance, turn off the camera and watch the lens close…leaving the outcome with trust…to the universe.

Experiments in Manifesting

Paula Kawal | Blog, Building Awareness, Meditations, Energy | Monday, July 16th, 2007

Yesterday I conducted some experiments in producing instant manifestations. The results proved something that I have known at a deep level for a long time…that our beliefs about the way the things we create can enter our physical reality are what dictate how long our manifestations take to enter the physical plane. Manifestation actually occurs instantly…if we allow it to.

For example, lets say you want to manifest something large and life changing. You have unconscious beliefs about how long it will take to manifest what you are asking for…you may even believe on many levels that you can’t have it. It takes a lot of warming up to a large manifestation to wear down those beliefs until you can actually see and feel your manifestation in a way that moves it out of a concept in your head and into an actual life possibility for you. This is all mind work though and has nothing to do with the universes ability to answer your request…but it has everything to do with YOUR ability to receive it!

For these reasons I want to share some techniques that through repetition help wear down unconscious resistance to the things you want in life and in the process, prepares you to receive them.

Starting Small

A great way to practice is by starting small. Starting small often earns you the position of experimenting without running into limiting beliefs and allows for some success with these processes very quickly. In this way you see the principles working, how they operate and how you interact with them.

Yesterday, I performed several experiments with starting small to see what kind of instant manifestations I could produce on the fly. Please read through and understand the entire process before experimenting with this.

The first was while meditating in the early morning. I asked the universe to show me our connectedness in the form of wild animal appearing that I would not ordinarily see, then I closed my eyes and continued to raise my vibration. A few minutes later I heard a distinct chewing sound to the left of me only to lock eyes with a young deer less than four feet away! I watched it for some time as from my energy level of connected wholeness, I was just a part of the landscape and completely non-threatening to it. It had a partner a few feet off and they stayed nearby until they heard the voice of my daughter calling from inside the house.

My second instance occurred while running on the treadmill. I began to experience a sharp, stabbing pain in my foot. Knowing that if I held my attention on the pain I would make it persist, I placed a mental bubble around my focus for a moment and considered my course of action. I decided to visualize white light all around my foot. I chanted the mantra light, light and saw nothing in my mind but universal healing. The pain immediately subsided and did not come back. I repeated this process for any areas of my body that were stiff or having difficulty and instantly all issues resolved.

These are examples of instant manifestations that occurred because I had no set belief systems in place regarding when they would come and are a perfect model of manifesting on a small scale to gain confidence in this process. Try manifesting parking spaces, green lights, telephone calls, checks in the mail, smiles and any other small thing throughout your day that you can think of. We start by honoring the smallest things in life because little is actually very big!

The Process of Manifesting Through Resistance

You can manifest your way through resistance patterns by taking steps to soften your mental positions and beliefs. These techniques slowly but surely bring you from a place where it is intended but not possible to an actuality for your life.

Step One: Define Your Mental Image

Defining your mental image is getting a clear internal picture of what exactly it is you want…plain and simple. If it is a new home for instance you might start building your image with what is most important to you.

When we were moving I knew well in advance what my next home needed to have so that I could be balanced. The single most important factor to me was the property. I needed space and a strong sense of nature. I wanted that space to be wide open near the home but very private, natural and insulated from the surrounding properties. Another important thing was water. I really connect and balance through the sound of water and I wanted a large waterfall on the property. For the house we needed a minimum of three bedrooms, a decent commute and good schools.

We had a very clear image of what we wanted as we went house hunting and we saw dozens of properties. It looked as if we would not find what we were looking for and if we did, that we would not be able to afford it. We simply stuck to our criteria and our knowing of what we wanted and needed. The house appeared after we sold our old house in Arizona and moved into temporary housing in Washington, where my husband’s new job was located. It was everything we asked for and even more affordable then we had expected.

Step Two: Practice

Practice living your manifestation. This may sound a bit strange but when you mentally practice a manifestation, you soften the unconscious resistant belief patterns you hold about this area of your life and strengthen your ability to allow your desires to enter. One of the best ways to do this is to use visualization as a way of experiencing the new life of your manifestation. You can do this while meditating, in dreams or in daydreams.

Visualization is a lot like daydreaming. In a visualization or daydream you construct your manifestation mentally and spend time exploring it, creating a vision of living an alternative path in life. If you are a lucid dreamer, it works in much of the same way but instead of constructing a vision you construct a dream. If you do not know how to lucid dream, you can still use the dream platform by visualizing or daydreaming about your manifestation before you go to sleep, as this will often lead you to dream about it and can sometimes give you one of those delicious dreams involving your manifestation in which everything feels so good that you can’t stop thinking about it when you awake.

These dreams are gifts…so use them by allowing yourself to re-enter that dream mentally during your waking hours. Don’t stay too long, just stay long enough to make it real, get a good feel for it and leave with gratitude for having experienced your manifestation on this level…if you stay too long you run the risk of feeling your manifestation’s absence which will only strengthen your resistance to accepting it because your energy will be resonating with lack.

Step Three: Make it Physical

Once you are adept at making it real on a mental plane it is time to move it into physical reality. In this way you can get creative and move toward a more concrete version of your manifestation, effectively taking it out of your head and into your world.

A great way to bring your vision into the physical world is through journals and vision-boards. In a journal you record a written chronicle of the visualizations, daydreams and lucid or regular dreams you have been using to practice your manifestation. You can even take it a step further and create a story of what your life will look like when it comes into being.

A vision-board is a more visual version of this (hence the name). Most people buy some poster-board and then cut pictures and words out of magazines or off the internet, assembling them into a collage that represents their manifestation. This visual manifestation collage is usually then hung up or displayed in a place where it will be seen regularly and can act as a constant reminder of the life the vision-board’s creator is manifesting.

Making it physical can be done in many ways. You can draw pictures of it, you can paint it, sculpt it or sing it. Use any medium available to you that helps you joyfully express it as long as it uses your creativity and there is something physical about your expression. This is an enormously powerful way to use your mind without being limited by it. Creative expression allows you to side-step all the beliefs in operation that do not coincide with your intentions by using your imagination to make your request of the universe from a place that suspends your normal beliefs. A place of possibility, a place full of magic, where anything can happen…and usually does ;)

Step Four: Take Action

Once you’ve gotten this far, it is time to start being the person who recognizes a manifestation such as the one you have in mind. You become one with the opportunity and thereby see the energy and where it is flowing.

Start each day with an affirmation of the good that is your life, each day express gratitude for all that you have currently and state your desires of the universe accordingly.

For example, if you want a new job you do not want to approach the universe with the thought forms of how terrible your current job is…you will be projecting the energy of that job instead of the job you want. This kind of judgment holds where you are…essentially sucking the potential out of your requests. Say instead, I strongly believe that this job is not suited to me. I now find a job that matches my natural abilities, fills me with peace and a sense of purpose.

Affirmations are a great way to keep you in alignment with the energy of your requests.

In step four you make your move, knowing that the work you have done to manifest has gone out before you and all that is required of you is a little right action. It IS already here…and it IS already yours. You simply walk out to meet it, and bring it home :)

Who am I?

Paula Kawal | Blog, Building Awareness, Meditations, Paranormal | Tuesday, July 10th, 2007

The following is an excerpt from an automatic writing session…

You are a sound, a frequency, a wave, a note of the divine. All life moves with the song of the universe. You are a dance, a motion, a rhythm, a light, a beam…you are a thought, a spark emanating from the mind of God.

Why do my dreams sometimes seem more real than when I am awake?

Your mind knows no difference because the only thing that IS real is energy. Energy forms thoughts, the world around you, the content of your dreams…the life you think you know, the life you want to live, your aspirations, your fears…all just energy.

Which is real?

The one you think is most real…the one you believe in the most becomes real through your attention because THAT IS THE REALITY you are tuning into…but in truth their are many paths available.

I feel confused. How do I know I’m going the right way?

You know because there IS no wrong way. All ways lead to the same place…growth, continuous change, variety, adaptation…GOD. You can not go the wrong way but you CAN choose how you will go.

Will you go at a vibration that causes you and those around you to suffer or will you go in a way that brings joy and ease to those around you or perhaps you are like most people and you bounce around in-between?

The how is up to you…but there is no wrong way…you are always in charge of what you will experience and the universe views all experience as having value.

But I don’t know what to do! How do I get clear?

By allowing yourself not to know….and then realizing that of course, you do know. When you acknowledge the belief or the energy form that you have created of NOT KNOWING, you release it from blocking all the knowing available to you.

You are inseparably connected to all the known and unknown factors in existence at all times…you are always in the natural state of knowing all things at once. What separates you from that is the belief that you are separate…indeed you are not, so when you can see the belief it ceases to operate unless you consciously choose to follow it. A conscious person can not choose an obvious falsehood over the truth.

The Difference Between Space and Indecision

Paula Kawal | Blog, Building Awareness, Meditations | Friday, June 8th, 2007

An Area of Personal Growth

Knowing the difference between space and indecision is an area that I have been working on for some time. However, recently the importance of striking the balance between trying not to rush into a decision (my personality’s default method) and taking a conscious stand (instead of allowing the circumstances to make my decisions for me) has been repeatedly brought to my attention. From a tarot reading which suggested I balance the water in my makeup with earth to meditations encouraging me to take full responsibility for and explore many of the more pivotal decisions I’ve made in life; it has become all too obvious that I am now in the place where I need to consciously and fully embrace and understand where I am standing in my life at all times.

Space or Inaction

Most of the time action grows organically out of giving your ideas space…but you can allow that process to stagnate by failing to commit to a course and then waiting for the situation to grow out of your inaction. Sometimes it does, but riding the fence can prevent you from gaining an intimate knowledge of your own processes if it comes from a refusal to see what is really there. Knowing how to bring space into a situation and when to take action from that space is reflective of great wisdom. This wisdom is born of an intimate awareness and knowledge of oneself and requires an introspective gaze into your own interior landscape.

Qualitative Questions Regarding Action and Space

Lately, my guides have been teaching me to monitor the space I give to the situations in my life and to ask myself a few questions throughout the process:

When I hold the space is there reluctance to act?
What actions can I commit to?
What actions must I refuse?
Am I waiting for an acceptable solution?
Do I know what an acceptable solution would be?
What do I hope to manifest by acting?
Is there anything I hope to get free of by not acting?

Revelation is the Reason for Questioning

At times this method creates more questions than it resolves but always at the very least it reflects the areas in which you do not have good answers and sets your feet on the paths you need to explore.

Exploring these areas in the quiet stillness and solitude of meditation can reveal some amazing answers, many of which have been blocked from the waking mind simply because of a non-acceptance of what’s really going on under the surface.

The goal is to make all that was previously hidden conscious so that an aware and awake decision can be made in every circumstance.

More Reflection

If you’re jumping to a quick solution; explore it. And if you find yourself waiting; look deeper. If you don’t want to act or can’t, ask why? And if you find yourself rushing headlong into something, bring that desire into the quiet, still and deep places you hold inside…and see if that desire holds up.

What I have learned from all of this is that truth must be seen and heard and made known if you are to grow. The truth about yourself is always something you can run from and ignore…but you simply won’t get anywhere spiritually by doing that. It is to our advantage to see it all; good, bad and indifferent makes up the whole of what we have to work with which simply is…what it is. If we want to change it, we have to be willing to see it, accept it and then make our decisions from there.

As we grow in spiritual power…this process becomes very profound…almost sacred, as the consciousness within us develops and we become aware of the fact that our emerging spiritual beings are getting closer to the surface of life…each and every time.

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