Over the last month, I have been fully stepping into working as a professional intuitive. The evolution has been interesting as I’ve learned to meld this work into harmonious interaction with my NLP and coaching skills. Throughout the course of this synthesis, everything within me coalesced into a deep understanding of who I and and what I am here to do.

With this congruency I’ve walked forward and have received more than I could have asked for in every respect.

I have a highly conscious friend who is fond of saying that the people you interact with will teach you what they need from you…this absolutely true!

In working with people, one of the things that has consistently come up is the desire to have an in-person relationship with their Spirit Guides. However, they have no idea where to begin.

This is what prompted me to create a free Spirit Guide Meditation. I wanted to offer some support to the people who order readings and so I’m happy to announce and launch the recording, here…on the blog.

This meditation is designed to clean your chakra system, achieve a place of connection and openness with your guides as well as travel with the information they share and fully integrate it from the highest spiritual levels into the environmental levels of your physical experience.

With deep love and appreciation, I offer this to my readers, clients and to anyone seeking assistance with connecting to their guides

Be sure to drop me a line to let me know how it is going!

Love and light,

PK

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Trail of Breadcrumbs

The Archangel Michael has been trying to get my attention for several weeks. These subtle communications began with work I was doing with another coach. I was coaching her to start her new career which combines a wellness food and supplement store with her health coaching services. When she found her store location she said there was a shop next door to it that always reminded her of me and she sent me a link to their website. From there I was led to the Archangel Michael pendant.

Michael kept showing me images of my spiritual self wearing the pendant and then in my NLP Practitioner group I became aware of a lady who channels angel healing and I watched her perform one on my friend Raj. I could literally feel the energy radiating out from her and affecting certain areas of my body even though she was not doing the healing for me.

To be honest I wasn’t at all sure what Michael was trying to tell me at first. I searched the internet for angel attunements, I looked up Reiki courses and tried searching for Michael in every way I could think of hoping he would lead me to some better understanding.

Angel Communication: If Subtle Hints Don’t Work…They Use a Hammer!

Then my daughter brought home a whopper of a virus, knocking us out of commission for nearly a week with skyrocketing fevers and terrible congestion. I was the last to get it and knowing that I allowed myself to become sick was like an alarm bell going off saying, what have I been ignoring that I need to take care of?

I thought maybe it was some accounting organization that was on my “to do” list…I cleared that out and it didn’t help. So then, I moved onto these all important “must have” documents I’ve been meaning to finish. I completed my revocable trust, will, my health and financial powers of attorney and still…nothing. Finally, after taking both of my children to the doctor and learning that they each had ear infections it clicked…I’m not listening…that is what this illness is trying to tell me.

Surrender

I already knew who it was I needed to listen to but I was bewildered because I had been looking for signs. Finally, the house cleared out for a day as the children and husband resumed a normal schedule and I surrendered. Michael, I said, I don’t know what you want…please show me.

The Attunement

I took the dog for a walk on the trails behind the house as I find the nature setting enhances my ability to receive messages as does the exercise. While walking with her I went off into a whole other world entirely safe under her watchful gaze, unconsciously moving along this trail we know so well.

Michael told me he wanted to teach me how to attune with him. He gave me a set of instructions which I followed to raise each of my chakras to his vibrational frequency.

Then he ran his energy through them, sprang forth from my crown chakra and bombarded me with light until we were deep into the void…nothing existed outside of the light…that’s all that there was.

When I returned to myself I found him standing directly behind me but it was more like he was standing inside of me except that he is sooo enormous he hovers high above my head. I understood that I was now an extension of his hands and a channel for his energy.

More on Mission

During this process Michael showed me a rapidly playing movie that explained the necessity of this energy connection with him and I received a lot more information than I knew previously about what my soul agreed to do on this planet.

In this movie was a map with points of light (representing geographic areas of high spiritual vibration, potential points for movements in the expansion of human consciousness), Michael explained that he has been with me from birth for the purpose of supporting those areas and that this mission is one that has been passed down to me through my Grandmother’s family in Cedaredge.

At this point he turned the conversation over to my Higher Self who explained some of the major turning points that happened last year and how they are significant in the present.

As I left the trail, Michael said the attunement process would continue for awhile and that I would receive a sign when it was complete, at this, he once again showed me his pendant.

Energy Shifts

When I returned home from the walk I went by a mirror as I removed my coat and stared into the largely dilated pupils of someone in deep trance. This didn’t really surprise me as it took me quite some time to get fully back into my body.

Something about the shift in energy made me simply irresistible to my dog though. First she tried to get all of her massive German Shepherd self into my lap for a cuddle and when that didn’t go to her satisfaction she followed me all around the house for a time whining audibly if I traveled to an area in which she is not allowed to go

Even the neighbor’s dog seemed affected as she ran tearing out of her yard toward me when she saw me out to check the mail…when she finally caught up with me she danced with her ears back begging to be stroked.

It’s funny how animals are often the first to respond to changing energy, come to think of it my palm chakras opened for the first time during the attunement, perhaps there is more to this petting stuff than I realized

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The BackStory of the Reading

When I first met Slade Roberson we had an immediate spiritual connection. I can only describe it as a very conscious recognition of spirit, as if, on another level we knew each other. This connection manifested in me asking him for an interview for this blog, a meeting with his guides regarding interview questions and lastly, scheduling a reading.

In each of these instances Slade was thinking something to which I responded, almost as if we had a spiritual short wave radio that we were using to listen to one another. I received my first reading from him a few days after I began my NLP Coaching course. I didn’t know what day he would do it, but was not surprised the morning I got the email because I was aware of another person’s presence (a distinct energy connection) the night before.

What was it like?

It was a journey. Together we traveled through the landscape of my energy toward a visual message that was meant for both of us. We met my main spirit guide, got a look at my god posse and discovered that we both serve the mother/goddess in the aspect of Mary…I would come to understand later the connection between her appearances to me and first chakra energy. Here is a segment of my reading:

I received a very detailed vision of visiting your Tower with you. You told me you had to “run upstairs to check something” and told me to look at a display case of what looked like trays of jewelry or pendants. You said “I want one of those” and ran off. I looked where you pointed and there were two pendants or amulets that appeared to be made of amber. They were shaped like honey bees, but were the size of carver or bumble bees — slightly larger than life-size.

They were gorgeous, and I thought, if Paula gets one, I’m getting the other one right beside it — I want one too! If you come back from San Francisco bearing some gorgeous new amber pendant, I’ll just die from jealousy! : ) Obviously, these are symbolic — I can’t imagine actually finding something like them physically existing… They were almost anatomically perfect, like tiny machines made of jewels or some material we don’t have the technology for. Well, I take that back, circuit boards and computer chips have a similar look and feel, really, in terms of physical material…

So, you came flying back down the stairs and grabbed my hand and said “I’ve got to show you something!” You were very excited. I followed you up this spiral stone staircase leading up into your Tower, and I was anticipating where you were going, but I was also reluctant to mention that I can only go so far up in my Tower — I can’t go out “on the roof” — at least, I haven’t been able to yet.

I was beginning to suspect you had discovered something I have not. Sure enough, the staircase went straight up to the ceiling and awkwardly ended. No door or window. There was a landing at the top, like there SHOULD be a door or window, but the space between the landing and the ceiling was barely half-a-foot high.

You said “Watch this!” You had just “watched someone else do this trick” and had apparently tried it, and very quickly returned to find me and show me:

You laid down and inched/crawled into that space between the landing and the ceiling — barely room to squeeze your body into it. It looked incredibly uncomfortable, claustrophobic… I was like “Paula, what are you…?”

Red-faced and barely able to breathe you shouted back “No! Watch this!” And right before my eyes you pushed yourself up against the ceiling, like doing a push-up and BIRTHED yourself through the ceiling and vanished. Like a caterpillar erupting through the skin of a cocoon.

The ceiling is an illusion. After you went through it, it returned to looking like a hard surface. But I know now that you have discovered a way to another level.

Slade literally saw me go through the roof of my tower and that is an appropriate visual comparison to what I have been experiencing.

What Does the Bee Mean?

The bee piece resonated with me so strongly I was surprised by my reaction when I read it. Around the same time as the reading, I picked up a chakra book at the East West Bookstore in Mountain View, CA when I was in training. I had no idea at the time that I would find a part of my answer to the bee there.

(From Wheels of Light)
The image of the bumblebee is found in Crete and Egypt. In Crete the queen bee symbolized the mother goddess who created everything, nurtured everything, and was the reason for being. In Egypt, the bumblebee was a sign of the female pharaoh, the southern part of Egypt or the Upper Nile.

The bee and other insects that move like a bee have a rhythmic movement in their legs and in their antennae. This movement relates to the first center. When that movement becomes exaggerated and accelerated it is then associated with flight. In people, when internal movement (or energetic vibration) becomes rapid, it can be said that we are “flying”. We are lifting and moving, expanding and growing in a way that we had not been doing before. Because of this association, the sound of buzzing is often related to the opening of the kundalini. Consequently, the bumblebee became symbolic of the first chakra in the ancient world.

Understanding Symbolism in Readings

Slade has a way with symbolism and reads authentically. He is his own physic in every sense and has a distinct style and ability mixed with straight forward honesty, curiosity and wonder at what he will learn.

My experience with him was a surprise, the information right on and the connection profound. Do I know all of what it meant? Yes, actually I do, so I will leave you with this last quote from my reading as food for thought.

It’s not lost on me that Jeff Lilly had a vision he wrote about that involved a mechanical bee. What do I think this bee is?

Well, I think it’s some totem that we share. I think it’s connected to technology and human ascension. As a devotee of Mary, I believe the bee represents something she stresses to me about human ascension — that we don’t ascend individually — we’re meant to ascend collectively. Is the bee perhaps a metaphor for the hive mind, the collective social structure, connectivity, our new technologically enhanced democratic communication?

These are my theories. Any honey bee action going on in your world?

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I chose the title of this article because it filled me with impish glee to write it. But before we go too much further perhaps I should explain why. The reason that it gave me such a tickle is that some of my most vital teachers could easily have fit under the bad & ugly categories…yet I look back on them with such appreciation that they have become to me…very good. Most of you who read this site have probably figured out by now that I love perspective shifts…they fill me with energy, expand my mind and set my soul free. So the title is all about perspective.

Psychic Experiences

I have never had a negative psychic experience. From my early childhood visits from a departed grandfather who liked to watch me sleep (which I never did for long due to the hissing that his presence always produced in my cat); a mischievous ghost named George who enjoyed pulling our covers off at night and tickling our feet to my adult experiences of having a conversation with my deceased grandfather, a grandmother who is currently suffering from Alzheimer’s and various spiritual figures such as angels, archangels, Jesus, the three forms of the Goddess; the maiden, the mother and the crone and her counter part the Sun Child and the Horned God. Yet, I do not consider myself a medium (I think a part of me is scared to see dead people) and I do not consider myself a psychic. So what am I? I’m just a spiritual adventurer…out there having cool experiences, seeing what I can learn and then sharing it with all of you

Angels

Seeing angels was not really what I expected. I was not sure how they would appear and I wondered if they would come in wings and robes but for me they did not. I could not see very many details at all…instead my first sighting of them was simply as beings of light.

My first contact was with my guardian angels. I could instantly distinguish their energy as such because it had a very different feel. They seemed beautiful to me in a very nondescript way…in fact the way they felt was their most distinct feature. These are the angels that cleanse my aura during my chakra meditations, they also help me connect to different parts of myself and other entities as well. They are never far…in fact, I am always aware of them…they seem to hover around the left and right sides of my head so I now know how it is that people began to think of them as being on their shoulders

Then not too long ago I was visited by Archangels. They too came over as beings of light…but towering in stature. Their energy felt immense and it was reflected in how they seemed so much larger than myself in my spiritual vision. They identified themselves as Michael and Gabriel. They accompanied Jesus, whom I embraced warmly when he arrived, we had at one time been very close but had a falling out over the years which had finally been healed. It was a momentous occasion to say the least! Here’s the funny thing though…these same archangels also accompany the Goddess (lately she appears in her three forms at the same time) and the Horned God when I communicate with them. I don’t know if this happens to anyone else but the archangels for me, now always herald the appearance of god energy.

Gods & Goddesses

I need to make a distinction here between Gods & Goddesses and Source. Source energy, Higher Self, Angels, Archangels, Jesus, Gods & Goddesses all have very distinct energy. When the Goddess appears to me she is immensely majestic. Beautiful, divine and full of feminine power she is quite the figure to behold in any of her three aspects. Her quiet power pervades my very being, her mere presence demands respect…she is the stately queen of all queens whom no man alive could resist.

The Horned God and Sun Child appear in the same majesty yet their energy is very different. It is the same in regards to its immensity but it has a very male feel. They are the two different sides of desire. He appears behind her…always in the background, on the hunt or as a glorious child on her lap. He is the part of us that seeks life and moves toward it…he is a match to the life force within us. I feel a kinship with him, he is very comfortable, familiar, loyal and safe. Yet a great power lies within him, like a pulse, just under the surface…it reminds me of the smell of the spring air when the world is just about to burst forth into bloom. That is his power.

Jesus

Jesus comes through as immeasurable love and kindness. He warms my heart and my spirits. He also has a safe and familiar energy…a bond of kinship and of life. Like the Horned God, he serves life with his own…so it is not surprising that their energy would be similar in some ways, but in others completely different. The Horned God feels a bit wild…Jesus does not…he feels like peace.

When I healed my relationship with Christianity, Jesus came through with the Archangels at his side. He gave me a warm embrace and encouraged me to continue to encircle all faiths. He then placed his hands on my stomach and it expanded beneath his fingers, his hands began to glow as his body took on a transparent quality. Then like smoke in a vacuum, he entered my body through my belly button, reforming as a full term fetus in my expanded belly symbolizing the expansion of my Christ Consciousness. I know what you’re thinking…the birth motif has been big with me lately…but what can I say…I just tell it like I experience it!

Spiritual Teachers

The most spiritual man I ever met, identified me as being a significant contact through a phone call. We were each working jobs that miraculously orchestrated our unlikely paths to cross. I immediately sensed he was a spiritual teacher although I’m not sure how conscious of it I was. I loved his energy…enjoyed talking with him…and could feel something awaken within me every time we had contact. He stated that a meeting like this, was never an accident, and as if to prove it, he selflessly helped me gain in consciousness for several years. People like this seem rare but they are out there. When the student is ready, the teacher will appear…

Psychic Vampires

One of the most important lessons I learned about energy was taught to me by a psychic vampire. Now, don’t get me wrong…most of us could be accused of having been a psychic vampire at one time or another…but this man made it his chief form of existence. You could literally watch him target someone, walk up to them and sink in his teeth. When he was done…a traumatized shell of the person remained until they got a chance to recharge their batteries and then he was back again, ready for more.

This experience taught me to take charge of my own energy, to learn how and where I could heal from such attacks and how not to make myself a victim. Like I said in the beginning…even the bad & the ugly can be good

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Reconnecting

Recently, I have been focused on re-opening my channels to divine guidance. Many of us, whether we are conscious of it or not shut down our natural channels of communication to the divine often because we have misunderstood the messages, been hurt by others during the process of receiving messages or we are angry at God. I had at one point questioned the validity of my natural guidance to such a degree that I could no longer take it very seriously.

Over time I had managed to push it so far into the background that I was rarely aware of it anymore. When I began to realize that I could not hold my purpose in this lifetime without it, I got serious about clearing out all the old judgments, pains and difficulties I had associated with consciously receiving messages from God.

Promptings

Since opening myself to the process I have received more promptings than ever before. Things like knowing a certain person would call that day even though there was no real reason that they should, being led to information, feeling another person’s pain or discomfort and sensing the presence of ethereal beings.

My real reason for opening these channels however was to receive direction about my own growth…and this is perhaps the most difficult guidance to receive because it challenges you on all levels to remain present as the old antagonistic voices stir with messages that are in opposition to what you are being prompted to do.

Higher Self Verses Ego

You can always tell the difference between higher self communications and those of your ego. Your higher self does not paint grandiose mental pictures in which you are loved by all for your accomplishments…its promptings are of a more wholesome nature in which you are simply acting in a way that supports what is already there. Your higher self may show you an image of further education or a direction of service but rather than the image of being loved by all for your special abilities it will simply show you contributing in a balanced way out of your own center of being. The higher self is only interested in your happiness and growth, it is always gentle and loving and will only give you guidance that brings you more fully into your own true nature.

Holding the Space

There have been times that I received divine guidance only to realize that I had a lot of fears around what it was telling me to do. One of the messages I have only recently received clearly is one I have misinterpreted many times in my life…but as is the way with divine guidance, your higher self will continue to send it until you finally understand. Knowing this did not make the fact that I had developed deep fears surrounding the disappointment of the past promptings much easier to face…but because I understood that my ego had gotten a hold of the situation and that was the reason I ended up disconnecting from the guidance in the past, I knew what to do.

I held the space around the guidance I had received. I looked at the fears and asked my higher self to lift them from me. I used mantras to positively reinforce that I have the courage to use the guidance I was given. By holding the space and not allowing judgments to come into play I had the presence to take the next step, and the next…with my higher self offering gentle support throughout the entire process.

Deep Connections

It challenges us down to our very depths to have close communications with the divine because it shakes every fear, negative belief and unprocessed pain that we’ve ever had to the surface. It reaches into our very being and extracts the beautiful essence of what we truly are from the cocoon of all the thoughts we have about who we think we are. Trust me on this if you can though…it is worth the work to be free of that old, disconnected, fearful way of living…and be able to trust life.

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An Unusual Guest

While in trance I often experience visits from people I have tranced with before…familiar characters if you will, but sometimes someone will enter that I’ve never talked to before. In this post I wanted to explore my conversations with the Crone. The Crone is the old woman aspect of a goddess triad who represents wisdom, repose, death, and endings; her two other aspects are the Maiden who represents inception, expansion, the promise of new beginnings, birth and youth and the Mother who represents ripeness, fertility, sexuality, nurturance, fulfillment, stability, power and life.

Goddess triads have been found throughout many cultures such as Africa, Asia and Medieval Christian Folk stories as well as in Greek, Norse, Celtic & Hindu Mythology. Sometimes she is three aspects of the same person and in other instances three separate persons that always appear together; her functions and personalities vary from culture to culture but I find meditating on the aspects of beginnings, fulfillments and endings to be of huge spiritual significance. These meditations connect me to nature, and as I find these aspects displayed everywhere in the world around me I am consistently reminded of the cycle of rebirth; all endings lead to new beginnings and all new beginnings travel through maturity and decline. Even so, of all the characters that one’s mind can face I beleive the Crone is one of the most unsettling, I did not meet her before I was ready…as the following trance excerpt displays:

I raised power into myself by becoming the tree of light and sat contentedly in the sand in a state of perfect alignment and peace. It wasn’t long before a figure dressed in robes with long flowing; silver-gray hair appeared beside me. I said, “Hello. Have we met before?” She said, “No.” and turned her face to me, “You were far more interested in meeting pretty boys than a hag whose face is death.” Staring at her closely I realized the deep truth of this. Her face was skeletal, yet it was also a void…my stomach wanted to turn but I stuck with it and continued to watch. To my surprise I actually felt comforted by her, I didn’t allow myself to fear and so the impulse of it gave way to a sense of awe and wonder. She sure would have been frightening not long ago; it was easy to see why I had not met her before now. “True,” I said. “I do love pretty boys.” “As do I,” she agreed with such appreciation that I was reminded of an old woman who was reliving the passions of her life…”but there is beauty beyond that form…and you miss much of it if you do not develop the eyes to see.”

“Why are you here?” I asked. “What do your feelings tell you?” she queried in return. “You represent endings…” I said, “But also new beginnings…you are the paradox of life.” “Very good.” She said. “You understand that I often signify a time of letting go…but I am also here to offer you a choice.” Before me appeared a path in the forest. We were standing before a “Y” on the path. Left and right looked very similar, the only difference was in how they felt. The right felt so incredibly wrong that I wanted to shrink away from it…and although I was standing still, it was as if the left was sucking me in. She did not offer much information about these paths…she simply said, “Do you know what choice you must make?” I responded, “Yes. I have to decide to make a commitment to my journey…or else go back to living as I was…but the time has passed for walking the line.” She nodded and before her sprung strands…they looked like spider webs. In her hands she held scissors. “When we make such a decision, old ways of life are cut from the vine; they die and shrivel like the fallen trees in the dark forest. In their wake…springs the new life you have chosen. Death, decay, loss always comes first.” “ I understand” I nodded. She continued, “This is not an easy path, for as soon as one walks it, they experience the shedding of the old skin, the regeneration of life…which feels like things are falling away, feels like loss, feels like death. That is the challenge of the choice…if one can see that and get through the discomfort, then their success is assured.”

“I have already made my choice.” I acknowledged, “Before you even asked. I knew last night that a dedication would be required of me. I searched myself and knew that I could not live life any other way. Come what may…going back is a far worse death…it is a living death that I can not endure.”

She nodded and the strands of her web began to shimmer and catch the light. “The path that you have chosen only allows for that which supports and stimulates your direction on it. That which drives you forward must continue, however, there are attachments that you hold,” she said. “That block the path and hold you to the old way. Will you relinquish them?” I saw materialize before me people and situations reflected in the strands. She asked in turn if I would relinquish them…some were easy choices, others were not. When I understood the choices and all the strands were cut she said. “I will ask you to relinquish no more. You must choose the path.” The clear choice was the path on the left, I made my choice and then the path disappeared and we were back on the beach. She touched my forehead and said…”this is the gift of sight for those who would see the mysteries.” And she pried open an eye that appeared beneath her fingers. Its vision was hazy…merely shadows. “You will see much in time.” She said and disappeared. I was glowing. I had a great deal of power running through me at this point. So I channeled the energy into a cone and released it into the clear sky, as my dedication to the path of spirit.

The Crone often appears when we are at a crossroads in our life…when things need to change or are already changing. She can help us see clearly what those changes entail. She is the wise-woman, the knower, the seer, the one who cavorts with death and is not afraid. Within her lies great power that we are often afraid to tap but I suggest getting to know this side of life a little better. I have found my conversations with the void to be of immense value

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